Two weeks of exams with two exams per day in 12 days… and yes! This is life at medicine. This was our schedule for the last first two weeks of March and most of us called it “Death March”. I really don’t know how I survived those weeks because it is really impossible for me to read again all the lessons that we’ve had for the whole school year. It is impossible for me to stay awake for the whole week with just 1 hr or 2 hours of sleep. There came a time that even if I don’t want to sleep that I already drank coffee more than just a cup, my eyes and my body felt so heavy that I really wanted to have a good night sleep but I can’t, ‘cause if I do I’ll probably fail. Going back to what happened, I could say that it is not just the so called “death March” but a weeks of grace. Why? I’ve never finished all the handouts, I’ve never remembered all the important things that I need to retain in my memory, I’d fell asleep while reviewing especially during the middle of the week of the exams but God’s grace makes me in awe. I can proudly say that I survived that week not because of my own strength and intelligence but because of God’s grace. When I will look at my status on that day of the exam, maybe I will not pass but because of God being with me during the exams, I was able to pass.
Most of the time when we look at our own strength and abilities, we felt frustrated on the things that we can’t accomplish. Why do we have to be this way? Why can’t we be like him/her? But we have to remind ourselves that, we don’t have to always look on what we can do but we have to look up because we have a greater God. Greater than everything and we can rely on Him all the time.
Our limited capabilities and weakness is good. Why? Because it is the time that we experience how God supply as with the strength that we need. I love what Catherine Marshall said “Crisis brings us face to face with our inadequacy and our inadequacy in turn leads us to inexhaustible sufficiency of God”. It is true! When we’re weak God will make us strong! I remembered a verse that says”
“Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12: 7-8
It is in our weakness that we can see, experience and witness how amazing God’s grace is in our life.
It is by Your grace where I am right now.